Dedicated to someone special
In life,we don't always thank all the ppl who have left some indelible b'ful memoirs.
I think i haven't thanked her till now,for the oodles of tiny-but-beautiful moments that we shared!
You don't always find in words exactly how u feel(more so in the words written by other people)...but today i just found the perfect match !
So here is my dedication to this 'special' person (Its the 6th opening of bleach..b'ful lyrics!)
Your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
you dont have to force your smiles for anyone
its okay to smile... for yourself
hearing your sweet voice didnt always hurt
its too late to block it from the inside
i want to take back our time
but luck and karma are against me
there are no words, but your eyes
cant hide what you want to say i dont even know anymore...
try to bury it deep down,okay?
we dont need the sky if were free to swim
even if you wont talk about yesterday
i'll still be there to meet you tomorrow
your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
you dont have to force your smiles
for anyone its okay to smile... for yourself
Never Say Die
Sorry for posting lately!
But i was busy with just winding up the things and making sure that i get my degree right on time.I got 'A' in grad-viva(the highest grade!).So things seems to work out well.I generally post when something important like a milestone happens in my life,
something to remember, something to cherish!
Now exactly 1 month and 7 days are left before i leave this place...i am turning hot and cold with flurry of emotions.
I think i have seen,understood and fought(with my inner demons) in this short span of life as much as anybody else can boast of,on this planet.I have been to the point when once i thought life is not worth living,but thankfully i had some special ppl in my life who stood by me,even my selfconfidence ditched me.Anyways i always say 'Never Say Die' and i think that's what matters in the end....If somebody say what will be the single message that i would like to leave to the ppl in the world..it will be just three words--'Never Say Die'..infact i can write a whole essay on these three words...but for the sake of poor reading souls..let's put that thought to the rest for now!
Once upon a time,
I used to sail on clouds
Fairyland on horizon
Vibrant colors-full of promises,
used to lure me away and causing me to sway
Intoxication was akin to marijuana
so addictive,yet so unreal.
Always felt promise-land is somehere near,
and Holy-grail is mine
Don't you fear!
Success is a folly
Failure is your ally
Ah..a failure is worth multitudinous success-stories
True faces glimmer in silhouette of soul
I was Gullified that logic is everything
Perenially believed Cause causes effect
But truth says rational fools rarify truth
I run around among hullaballoo
trying to catch fireflies in deep woods
Pungent smell sticks to my hand
cuing me of my falling
I devise ways to preserve the scent
Superior olfactory sense whispers in my ear,
Don't you let it go,it's the 'ultimate perfume'
I can't breathe but i learn it.
I can't learn but i persist.
I can't persist but i remember.
I can' remember but i smell.
I smell the scent and something sparks.
Something catches fire and turn to ashes.
Don't you worry! I am a phoenix.....
The may be .........last hurrah
Its time to turn nostalgic.
I am not a very sentimental person but uts truly been 5 wonderful years.
I have got what i expected 5 years ago and may be a lot more!
Anyways yesterday was our grandviva.For new ppl let me explain what's it all about!
A student is locked in a glass room with 8 professors.And then starts firing of questions about whetever you have learnt in degree for past 4/5 years(that means whole degree course is syllabus!).Mind you it has 2 credits and ppl get F/RE also!
Process is more like a stress interview and sometimes turns into hialrious as well.
I had a grandviva last year as well,so i knew what to expect.
I am no more shy of speaking in public appearances or presenting a ppt or one to one sessions(numerous ppts,project evals and ofcourse grandviva owe a lot of thanks from my side). I have more memories of viva going hilarious than awry!
In my viva in 4th year i was not able to tell full form of NP(shame on me,i am a computer engr!).But this time all went well as i was very well prepared.
Anyways after great gv,i was ecstatic and wanted to have a great night as well.
So i called all cool friends for a party(we call it dood party!),basically it is a booze party with all final year dual degrees from comp sc.So we 16 ppl went to LS bar(thanks to my smooth event management and zeal).
And then started the rounds of the amusing stories of the grand vivas in relam of flowing booze,to cursing,to shayaries and paan and drunkard shoutings in campus to wind up the ceremony.
Intoxication was just right...not loosing the perspective and lighten up of the things.I also noted that when after boozing a lil if u speak at the top of your voice for prolonging periods then effect remains for a longer time !
Anyways we all were intoxicated in the bonds of pure friendship,this final year has brought a lot of us very close to eachother than ever before.This might be the second last "dood party" of our college days.We will cherish these memories and may be will miss forever the gala time we are having presently in our lives!
Here are some pics from the fold:
Life??
A hint of dazzle on the horizon
Like a new life giggling in womb
It turns bloody
and innumerable shades and colors come to fore
it seems like life
full of surprises and promise
full of zest and queer
It seems like sand slipping out of hand
The color turns into a dazzle
Surrounding turns warm
a cobweb of kinships begins to weave
spirits become intertwined
heart recognizes the aroma of the warmth
Life begins!
Tender plays cajole the soul and
never thought something can be so pious
innocent,innocuous and free of adulation
The tiny sprout dare to reach sunlight
Fool dreams of becoming giant redwood oneday
Darkness begins to engulf
Contests begin,The struggles commences and continues
Somewhere something snaps and warmth fades away
Journey seems arduous and roots rot
Oneday beautiful fairy comes,shows the way
Birds chirp and soul enlightens
Traveller falls in the vicious circle
Journey goes round and round
Destination becomes blur and world becomes vague
New cobwebs get built,sanctity gets lost
Wait for inevitable starts
Two imprints left on the sand
and tide washes it away !
