fate vs will,Will come back hard
One of my chidhood dreams was to become an ias ...Destiny has carried me here and got me to study computer science but i must admit that i m a terrible adapater.....But once i adapt i am as good as anyone...
One wud be amused to know that i used to fear from/hate maths(which i still do!!) and ended up as doing something which pertains to mother of all mathematics...this is pure fate...it is noting that i cud have done something about it
Similar thing holds for about the halls i live in....... pure fate!!
But i know i have an enormous amount of will power and i will turn my dream into reality ...not for me but for some ppl who have pinned their hopes on me
The post before was just posted right after a macabre exam...
And I was feelin quite low as tina has also left me .........I wish she cud understand that how much i care for her ...it was just that i got entangled in the cobwebs of my life and must admit became a lot sel centred...........i always njoy doing some programming and instead of writin a mail ...i thought writin same lines of code will produe something wonderful....But She will always be a one special person in my life ....I also thought it very ridiculous to hold to her ...when sh can do so much better with out me........After all I know that i am a little self centerd these days ....but its the necessity of he hr ...otherwise i will lose the focus and time lost will just not come back
Soo tommorrow also i have my exam as well ...Software engg
Gotta study and make some b'ful concepts ...This is the subject i love and i seriously disagree with the ppl who say that it is just about mugging ...I think the companies and organisation who develop mamoth s/w knows and appreciate its value...Since i also have made some small s/w of my own like "snakes and ladders" aka "solitaire"...So i know how much effort a systematic planning can save
So definitely thumbs up for s/w engg
But History will always be my first love
And me going to "TCS-HYDERABAD" for my summer intern ....Hoping that will find something new there and excited to make some new friends in this mildly complicated entangled web of my life
frustrated with life
Lately the horses of luck are not with me and I don't know why??
yesterday a beloved friend of mine snapped relnship with me and today what i left in the whole course counted for 20% of marks in paper....Life is really frustratin right now and i want to run away somewhere to cool off myself
self analysation(was in a philosophical mood)
Note:these thoughts came in to my mind when i was having a leisure time because of the blackout of lan in our hall..It was like 4 days in prison without the lan the life seems to be like hell and i really don't know that whether i want anything fro life anymore!!I don't want to leave this life of leisure and constantly trying new things but i guess i will have to eventually move on with life and leave this IIT!!
why am i like i am??
Today in afternoon just i was laying on my bed...I saw the poster right on the wall...which
had that age old story of "footsteps on sand and god carrying the man in his most difficult and troublesome
times".It just initiated a process of self analysation in me and I pondered upon where
my life is going and asked some questions to myself...which i don't know how many ppl ask to themselves??
I analysed my character,behavior and what world thinks about me and in general what's going on in my
life?Is it all that I wanted from life ???Is this the way that I wanted my life head to??
Will post later the answers of these questions in my subsequent posts
bye
xams are trivial now!!
Well I have come back again to post and i m very relieved that I cracked the networking test without any huge catastrophe....:-))
Lately life has been a little slow the assignments,classes,softwares,project1 and the failure of the talk to a proff in UK whom i couldn't convince that $550/month is not going to suffice for my living in UK for my summer internship in may/june.....:-(
Soo i guess now i have to do my summer intern in INdia only and where???That's a suspense!!
Soo yet another midsems are on the horizon and I don't feel like i m having some exams in near future and not feeling any urge to study....I guess now my study days are slowly drifting away from me....No more enthusiasm towards studies:-(
I like to work now more on assignments and projects as I feel they give me some kind of job satisfaction and happiness ....Lately i have been avoiding footer as well which i guess is not right .....Life will always be busy and I guess to stay fit and kool u have to have manage ur time in best possible way.....
rest is best
Signing off in +ve mood
Present song:"hum naa samjhe the baat itni si.."-Gardish(one of my all time favourites!!)
Me Mr. Confident
Hi to all
After soo long time I have come to post again..:-)
You all must be wondering what i was doing all these days....
Believe me or not in the past 15 days i haven't written a mail or even chatted with some one on my yahoo messenger...I guess i as very busy with my java and networking assignments...
Umm now i have made 4 s/w which look like any other professional s/w in market....
in JAVA
And i think that s/w engg comes natural to me.
So now i have got a whole set of array of languages under my kitty and a hardware language will get more than a warm welcome in my brain....May be now i will learn verilog as it is req for my project.
My java skills have really increased in an exponential manner.....May be now my skill level is in tpp 3 in class.
So i have decided to use appropriate language for appropriate cause
Java-software
c&c++ with mamoth power of STL-algos and codes
perl-scripts and data mining
vb-microsoft technologies
php,html and sql-database and website applications
Soo I guess that since this is only my 6th sem and with this much fire power i can definitely conquer some goals
Beware !!I m coming hard
oK bye gotta go ...have to mug lots of pages for networking........byeeeeee
